Shock and Awe

I felt the baby move for the first time last night!

Kos has obviously felt the baby move alot than me, but everytime she did feel it move, I would run over, place my hand on her bump and wait...and wait....and wait...but nada..nothing. So last night when I felt my unborn child's kickboxing skills it made the preganancy all the more real (even after our first ultrasound: refer to my previous post).

I have gone through (just as many other fathers have and will) a variety of emotions since finding out that we are expecting. From jubilation that my junk works (nasty topic, but hey good for the male ego!) to excitement at the prospect of having a junior Sam n Kos with us in May. Another emotion I have also experienced lately is one of being utterly freaked out. 'Scared' is not a good enough descriptor!

I wake up sometimes realising that in three and a half short months I'll be responsible for a baby. Food and clothes are the easy part. The doubt of your ability to be a father creeps in and the amount of stuff we have to get organised before the arrival of the bub can sometimes make you want to jump back into bed and awake from the nightmare!

They say women's emotions fluctuate wildly during pregnancy, but I think men's thoughts and feelings need to be acknowledged as well. It is a roller coaster ride for both parents and a huge lifestyle shift for all parties involved.

Don't get me wrong, freaking out occurs, but thankfully not as often as the happiness experienced on the journey so far, so let me get back to feeling those punches and kicks and enjoy the wonder of expecting a child!